Moving out, Weigh day & Going Vegan?! #9

First of all, can I just thank you all for the amazing support and love I received on my last post. Seriously, I had friends that I haven’t spoken to in years, people who I follow on Instagram or Friends with on Facebook reach out to me and wish me well or tell me they could relate and honestly it was such a wonderful feeling. I was super nervous to post that blog but I am so glad I did. Thank you.

I’ve officially been ‘moved out’ for 4 weeks now, waaaah! I know I’ve mentioned the moving out process a lot in my previous posts, probably bored you all to death with it, but its one of the biggest things you’ll do in your life I suppose. 

I really, really wanted to move out. I have wanted my own space for so long and honestly it felt unreachable at some points and I wondered if I’d be at home still in my 30’s. I know a lot of people who still live at home who are my age so I feel super lucky to be in this position. 

       I never really thought about what moving out of my family home would be like once I’d actually done it. I lived with my mum, my step-dad and 2 brothers. Now I live with just my boyfriend and he works a lot. He’s a musician and studio hours are not exactly 9-5 so finding time to see each other has always been tricky. It’s very strange to go from being in a busy household with people coming and going constantly to living with one other person who isn’t always there when I come home from work. I’ve had to adjust and it’s actually been really difficult. As much as my brothers would annoy me and slam doors and always be in the bathroom, I kind of just miss getting home and having people around, whether they are annoying or not. I’m actually really enjoying having my own space and being in control of things, this isn’t supposed to be a negative thing at all. I just think it’s important to share things that are not always happy as Larry. Sometimes you struggle, and that’s cool. 

I’ve found that being on my own a lot, led me to feeling boredom. I’m not someone that’s ever usually bored. I always find comfort in a book or Netflix and I’m really good at being on my own most of the time. The first 2 weeks I didn’t cope well with it, but the past week I’ve definitely found ways to combat this feeling. I’ve been more on top of my work for business than I have been at all this year, which is great. I’ve been cleaning a lot, cooking, doing a lot of washing, having a lot of baths. Ha ha ha. That all sounds absolutely boring as fuck. To be honest I’ve actually enjoyed it, it’s been keeping me busy. I’ve arranged 2 nights to have friends over next week and I’ve cut down on the amount of telly I’ve been watching in the evenings to 1 hour, because I honestly think watching a load of shite on the telly makes me feel even worse than I did before. My main point is I’ve really made an effort this week to find ways to make this transition easier, to make it more productive and enjoyable to be on my own and to fill the hole of the hustle and bustle of living with a whole family.

I’m happy I moved out and it was 100% the best move for me at this point in my life, but Jesus christ, you don’t realise how much your mum actually does until you leave home. Love ya Mum. 

Diet update. So I’m gonna be real, I’ve struggled with staying on plan since moving out. All the cooking is pretty much down to me, I don’t mind at all, I love it actually but my mum would pretty much always cook a slimming world dinner so I didn’t always have to cook at home but now I literally have to or I don’t eat. So there had definitely been a few dominoes when we first moved in but this week I have been SUPER on it. I’ve started a food diary, and I’m so happy I did because in the past I’ve always shunned them and didn’t think they would ever actually help. I was wrong. They have helped so much with keeping track of my syns, so I’m going to carry on with that and hopefully that’ll help to really keep me going. I’m gonna’ start posting a few pics on insta of meals too. It might motivate me to cook some new stuff rather than sticking with the same old boring recipes. Who knows! 

I also decided to cut out cows milk for good. I’ve always toyed with the idea of it, I absolutely hate they way they take milk from cows and I really wanted to stop drinking it but would always find excuses not to. I know a lot of people don’t really understand because I’ll happily still eat meat but I’d actually love to be a vegetarian/vegan one day, I really would but I’ve clearly got an issue with food, that’s why I’m dieting so cutting out everything would be too much pressure for me at this time and I know I’d fail and be disappointed. I think the best way to start is just one thing at a time. Next week I’m going to start 1 day a week meat free and see how I get on. I’m not aiming for vegaism or even vegetarianism at the moment, I just want to help in my own little ways. Losing weight is my main priority right now, everything else can come later and I ain’t sorry.

Weigh day is Tuesday so I’ll post then too, let you all know how I got on. Scary. 

Okay, back to work tomorrow, bath, book and bed for me! 

Lots of Love.

Ayme’s world x