5 things that made me UNhappy this week. #3

Life isn’t always great. Sometimes you have shit days, weeks or months. I really believe in focussing on the positives but I can’t pretend that sometimes finding positives isn’t harder than usual. This week has just been one of those weeks. Not much has happened, it’s not been terrible but it’s not been great either. 

I decided to write about some things that made me unhappy this week, because life is real and it’s a bit shit sometimes and that’s ok. 

1. Bullying.

I drive home past a school from work everyday, usually at the time I drive past, the kids haven’t come out yet so it’s quiet. I left work a little later than usual, so there were teenagers everywhere, all over the road. A small group of boys were waiting at the bus stop as I was approaching. One of the boys was standing on his own when one of the others punched him from behind. My heart dropped as the boy burst into tears, he didn’t fight back, he didn’t get angry he just stood in the road and tried his hardest to hide the tears from the other kids. The bully found it hilarious that he’d made him cry, alerting the other boys to the situation, which resulted in more laughter. What do you do in this situation? It’s so hard to know the right thing to do. My gut instinct was to jump out of the car and cause a scene, but would this have helped? Would it have helped the boy who had been on the receiving end of that punch? I don’t know, maybe I could have done more but I was really close to the entrance so I pulled over to call the school and described the boys to them and a teacher came running out of the school. I hope the boy was caught because this wasn’t a fight. It was clear bullying, there’s no excuses for it, it ruins lives and more needs to be done to stop it. 

2. Diet. I’ve been on and off dieting for years. Recently I’d been doing really well, then this week was awful. Completely went off plan, ate whatever I fancied and I feel terrible for it. It made me feel really shit and just contributed to a shittier week. Back on plan on this week, let’s give it another go. (Again)

3. Time. This is a weird one. Time just seems to be running away from me at the moment. I feel like there is just no time for anything. It gets me down that I sometimes don’t have enough time to work on new products for my business because any spare time I have is spent printing and packing orders. It gets me down that my schedule doesn’t fit in with my boyfriends and some weeks we barely see each other. It gets me down that sometimes I’m really shockingly bad at prioritising time and this results in me feeling exactly the way I do now. I need to get better at planning my spare time, it’s not working right now so something needs to change. I definitely feel like time is one of the hardest things to manage in life. 

4. Bills. Do you ever feel like you just work to survive? I swear I have so many bills that come out of my monthly pay that it makes me want to scream. The money I have left over is definitely enough to live, but it’s not enough to save. I saw a post recently that millennials should spend less on meal deals and they might be able to afford a deposit on a house. Ok hun. 

5. Fixing someone else’s problems. I dunno if I’m just a busy body , but I have this incessant need to fix everyone’s problems for them. Not everyone. I mean people I love, it drives me fucking insane because I really really just want to help but sometimes the help isn’t well received and I can’t help but kick myself for wasting time on it. I’ve got a lot to contend with in my own life, so why do I spend so much time trying to find solutions for other people’s problems? Just to avoid finding my own solutions I suppose. Any tips how to stop being so involved and start caring a little more about myself? 

Maybe next week will be a post about all the things that made me happy, but probably not because I’m so busy with work due to Black Friday. Hopefully I’ll be able to pull some positives out of the next manic week! 

Ciao,

Ayme x